so... i'm back from tennessee.

im tired of sitting up countless nights for no reason at all. i can't ever find anything to write about, or paint, or even doodle... ugh. i think i'll start sewing. sike! at least next week will be fun. way fun! like, the most fun of the summer. yesss, tennessee here i come.

we found it!! it was so cool! its destroyed totally though. but there were underground tunnels, canals, and plenty of ruins...

i'm about to go look for the dow plant again, except this time with brendan, molly, long pants, bugspray and flashlights. maybe this is a stupid idea. but i find the stupidest things the funnest, and what is life without a little bit of risk? besides, it should be worth it. and if not, it'll at least be fun to hang out with them.

"we do not remember days, we remember moments."

i write in this blog so much simply because it's what i love to do. no, not blog... haha. write! it's my hobby, i guess. that and art. everyone always tells me all i must do is sit around the computer and paint. so nothing really, right? i think i do more than a lot of people. it's not like i'm a slowly rotting couch potato. i'm doing what i love! i think i'll pursue this "hobby" in the future.

i'm so happy. the fire in my heart is rekindled each time i go to church, and tonight has set my heart so ablaze that it's tickling the back of my throat. never have i experienced a sermon so powerful that it left me shaking. you know something's good when you shiver and feel the tingles up and down your spine the whole time. it was really emotional and i consider myself lucky to have witnessed it.

doesn't the title of this blog seem exciting? ahh! i am so excited for the youth retreat. eight days! i have a feeling it's going to be the highlight of my summer. i'm glad i'll be away from home. i've never gone to any camp or anything similar before... well besides vbs when i was little but i mean, staying overnight and such. anyways, i am so excited! i don't like swimming in lakes, though... the bottom of them feel gross and freak me out. and then there's the alligator factor... what if i got my leg bit off?

some days you get lots of mail. some days you only get a single piece of mail. some days you get just junk mail - but it's still mail, right? and then some days... you get no mail.

i'm not all WOOHOO about this anymore. it's kind of boring... but my opinion is always changing, so in a week or so i'll be writing eight-paged posts just as usual.

i'm happy with life at the moment.

hmmm... yesterday was good. i got a nintendo ds! it has cameras on it (whoa)! and i also went to zeke's island with laura and sam. today i'm going to get some new boardshorts and then going exploring with laura and sam again. we're destined to find the ethyl-dow plant catacombs. well, maybe not. but i hope we do. and hopefully we'll have some pictures to show from it!

today was nice. i was with erica from early morning till late afternoon, and even though we didn't do much, it was pretty enjoyable. we watched The Proposal and it was hilarious. then the tear-jerking Notebook. after our moviethon we went outside and played with firecrackers. i don't like them anymore. haha.

yesterday was exciting. i have one chunk of sand still stuck in my eye. the beach was fun, but i hate dirt in my eyes. last night molly came over and we went fourwheeling with jo and cody. it was really fun but i got more dirt in my eyes (haha). when we took molly home around 12, my aunt called saying she wanted us to come over. we got stopped at a roadblock and apparently my mom's license has been revoked because she didn't pay a ticket. the officer told us "i can't watch you drive away from here. you two are gonna have to switch and go." so, that meant i had to drive away from them all. i SUCK at driving. and being so nervous didn't help at all. they didn't even ask who i was or for my permit/license or anything! so stupid.

i hate cops

so, today i hung out with a bunch of people, and it made me feel pretty good. i guess i'm a people person but i didn't think i was. first i went to the beach with jessie and samantha, then the pool with austin, and then fourwheeling (?!) with jo'lin, lindsey, and dana. it was a really fun day.

i miss aaron and ethan. i used to hate them so much, and now all i do is miss them. my mom would always say "don't be mean to each other, one day you'll wish you hadn't." i guess i understand what she meant now. i miss playing legos and video games and hide and seek with them. i miss them waking me up way too early to go play with them. i miss sliding down the stairs in a toy box lid, telling them its okay to jump on the bed, and fighting over the last juice box. i miss them coming in my room in the middle of the night because they were scared of the shadows outside. i miss the birthday cards they made for me. i miss chasing roxy around with them. i miss having watergun fights. i miss ethan crying about everything, and aaron always trying to be the tough guy.

i miss my little brothers a whole lot.