lately, i've been worrying about the future a lot. all i do is worry! i've got two years to figure it out, but aren't these last two years the most important? just the thought of college scares the crap out of me. it took me so long to get where i am, and i don't like the thought of starting completely over. i don't wanna make new friends, i like the ones i have! another question comes to me while on the subject of college. what do i wanna go for?! i think i wanna be a therapist. but then again, maybe i fit more into the slot of the therapist's patient. so, maybe an architect? but i suck at math... when i was little i wanted to be a celebrity chef, but that dream has been smushed due to the recent realization that i can't cook - at all. haha. i would really like to be a journalist/writer but i've heard there's not much money in that profession, and i do wanna move out before i'm 40. i recently discussed this topic with a friend, and we came to the question "if you got the chance to see yourself ten years from now, would you?" at first i really liked this idea. i thought, sure! all my worries would be gone and i could finally let out a big sigh. but no. i was so wrong. say you took this oppurtunity... then wouldn't you worry about how to get there? my mind quickly changed. while pondering the future, i realized that i should just keep my worries in the present. it's not about what's happened or what's going to happen; it's about what's happening.